Can we just worry about everything?
I monitored 4 times a day for a whole week and had 1 number that was slightly abnormal but it was clear *to me* that I have some level of reduced insulin availability because I cut out basically all sugar and simple carbs to do it (no sugary snacks, no potatoes, no pasta, no white bread) plus the fact that I had glucose in my urine at my appointment. The one number that was abnormal was after 1/2 a banana and a tiny plain donut (my only splurge the entire week). I'm active, going for long walks nearly every day and running after my 2.5 year old. My fasting numbers were all 75-80 and after meals usually 82-95. Am I off base?
So that brings me now to diet and weight gain. My diet is whole fruit / nuts / avocado / salads / whole milk yogurt / cheese / vegetables / eggs or oatmeal for breakfast / flax bread with peanut butter / and meats like shrimp, chicken, and turkey. I have small amounts of brown rice and quinoa. I satisfy my sweet tooth by throwing in a few dark chocolate chips with my fruit, nuts, or yogurt. I drink nothing but water with lemon or unsweetened tea.
On this type of diet I have actually LOST weight in the last 3 weeks and am now only up 8.5 lbs over my pre-pregnancy weight. Which if all that gain was 2nd trimester, I wouldn't be so concerned but I am entering my 3rd trimester with a negative gain slope when I should be gaining the most! Plus with my first, my gain slowed/stopped by 37 weeks so I have basically 10 weeks to get to my 25-35lb recommendation. And now I'm paranoid something is really wrong. I'm afraid of starving my baby of nutrients and fat. I gained 28lbs in my first pregnancy and lost it all easily and then some so I'm also paranoid about having trouble post partum with keeping a healthy weight to breastfeed. But I didn't restrict any carbs or sugar at all (though I had a good diet - I just didn't deny myself an ice-cream or spaghetti with a breadstick every now and again, ya know?). I try to eat and eat and eat whenever I can and make sure I'm not *dieting* just making healthier choices. I eat when I'm hungry.
So, yeah. This got really long and rambly. I have an appointment on Thursday with my midwife and I'm sure I'll be discussing all this in depth then. Baby measured fine at the anatomy scan and midwife was not concerned at my last appointment. My brain is just having issues and I don't know what I am looking for. Reassurance? Similar experiences?
I am feeling really down right now, like I'm failing at this. I felt like the second time around things would be easier, not more complicated.