Curiosity About Depression During Pregnancy
Here is a quick back story for further detail and information if it helps.
I will be 29 weeks pregnant this upcoming Friday. I have suffered with depression since I was seven years old. I have been off and on medication. For the past six years I have been off medication, and slowly but surely I have been feeling much better after working very hard to get to a place of happiness. For the first 27 weeks of my pregnancy I have been ecstatic and happy. Just recently, within the past two weeks, I have felt an overwhelming amount of depression.
I feel that I have no one to talk to. My boyfriend is already doing so much to help with our baby I don't want to put more pressure on him by burdening him with this depression. I am also scared he will think that because I am depressed that means I don't want to have our child, or that I will be a bad mother, the first is definitely not the case, the latter of course I hope is not the case and I will make sure that I will do everything in my power to not be a bad mother.
I have read a decent amount online about depression during pregnancy, all of which tells me to inform my doctor. I want to do this, but I am scared to do this as well. What I fear most by telling my doctor, is that he will inform DCF or some other agency and tell them that because I am depressed I am not fit to have a child, and they will take my child away from me.
I am also fearing that this will lead to postpartum depression after he is born.
The bottom line is I feel so confused, overwhelmed, scared, helpless and hopeless. I don't know where to turn so I am crying out here. If anyone has any suggestions, or can offer some insight from their own experiences, I would severely appreciate it. Thank you all so much for your time!
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